bible-readingI couldn’t stay once I read it in the bible for myself. I couldn’t stay any longer when I found out that a lot of what I believed was added into scripture. I couldn’t stay any longer once my eyes where open to the pride. I couldn’t stay any longer when the inconsistencies in scripture were too big to ignore any longer. I couldn’t stay any longer when after 13 years in, I still didn’t know if I was saved or not. I couldn’t stay any longer when after 13 years I didn’t know who or what was going to save me in the end. I couldn’t stay any longer when pastor after pastor, preacher after preacher constantly contradicted each other. I couldn’t stay any longer when I found out other Christians loved Jesus and had a relationship with Him (I was lead to believe both of those where false) yet they didn’t hold to the same soteriology I did. I couldn’t stay any longer when I found out about grace. I couldn’t stay any longer and listen to the hatred, depression, fear induced, cliché, non-biblical preaching.  So, what did I do? I left Oneness Pentecostalism. It was by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It was the most traumatic experience in my life and it didn’t happen overnight. Did I “backslide” no, I did the exact opposite. I found Jesus.

To be continued……